Im now just waiting for ur decision. I want to noe but at the same tyme, im scared to hear it...
I dont noe how i feel right now but for sure im *AFRAID*...
What will it be..?? I feel lyke crying but im trying not to. Coz, i promised hym not to cry...

Sometimes, i just hate waiting... But wad can i sae, im alwaes b dis wae..
Even ppl sae im not patient, but wad i noe....
Im too patient in the past n now its tyme for me to go ahead in doin thngs...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

s0rie 4 being 2 em0tional diz daes. Its all bc0z of ma dreams. Its been telling me l0tz of thngs. Last time, i use to tel u dat i dream dat u sc0ld me but u t0ld me dat u will neva eva sc0ld me n u w0nt. Den, i dream ab0ut u leaving me. N im scared. Den, u t0ld me again dat u wil neva leave me.
N0w, i dream dat u r cheating me n u haf a new girl in ur life. Is it true?
I dnt knw y im lyke diz.
I trust hw im feeling. It alwaes been true.
I want 2 leave u c0mpletely but i cant du it.
I lurv n miss u s0o much. I w0nt change dat feeling. N i jus cant.
U t0ld me b4, dnt misses u n thnk b0ut u t0o much c0z i might get sick. N im realie2 sick. But u jus dnt trust me.

I just want 2 b with u e hard tyme n e gd tyme. I wil alwaes b there 4 ew. Sori! Bc0z of me, u neva cntct ur girls fren. Im s0rie.

Rite nw, i have been waiting 4 ur msges since ystrdae. Pls du reply aites.

Im s0rie haslan!

s0rie 4 being 2 em0tional diz daes. Its all bc0z of ma dreams. Its been telling me l0tz of thngs. Last time, i use to tel u dat i dream dat u sc0ld me but u t0ld me dat u will neva eva sc0ld me n u w0nt. Den, i dream ab0ut u leaving me. N im scared. Den, u t0ld me again dat u wil neva leave me.
N0w, i dream dat u r cheating me n u haf a new girl in ur life. Is it true?
I dnt knw y im lyke diz.
I trust hw im feeling. It alwaes been true.
I want 2 leave u c0mpletely but i cant du it.
I lurv n miss u s0o much. I w0nt change dat feeling. N i jus cant.
U t0ld me b4, dnt misses u n thnk b0ut u t0o much c0z i might get sick. N im realie2 sick. But u jus dnt trust me.

I just want 2 b with u e hard tyme n e gd tyme. I wil alwaes b there 4 ew. Sori! Bc0z of me, u neva cntct ur girls fren. Im s0rie.

Rite nw, i have been waiting 4 ur msges since ystrdae. Pls du reply aites.

Im s0rie haslan!

life aint great actualie...
I just nid a fren, n0t a l0ver...
Am i hys fren or jus a STRANGER?
Lyfe is full of pain. Hearts kip bleeding n br0ken evry n0w n den.
Try 2 b hapie but theres n0 wae out.
Get ign0red n jus b al0ne.
No friends but jus family.
No m0re trust 4 any0ne n datz f0r sure.
Life aint e same after i break ppls heart.
Im full of shit n neva stop making mistake.
I hate u but i du lurv u?
Wil dis l0ve get awae...?

todae i juz stay at h0me all the way. Boring! 2dae, i jahit langsir... Hm. Baru2 blaja. Haha!
My dad n 2 sis pi pancing. Left me n mumi at h0me...
Hm. Kemas2 rumah skit... Den, all e wae baring aje. Tired c0ughin. Got headache, n fever.... Hm. High fever sehk. =(
Haix...

HELLO LADIES N GENTLEMAN...!!!
Haha! Ape aku m3pek nie ehk.
I oso dnt n0e lah gerl... Tadi, aku sakit rabak n reali cn make me go crazi3...
I go d0c at night gitu. I got a secret illness actuali but t0ld my parents dat it jus a n0rmal fever. Only he knws but wtf sehk. I told hym ma sickness, but he said, 'st0p telling me dat u r sick!'
Haiy0o. Mcm tk berhati perut btul ehk. Nw, yeah kita kwn. Kalau kwn baek dia, mcm wan n sape2 ah sakit... Wil he b there 4 dem? Dia sakit, aku jugak yg tgk dia. Pmpn nie jugak yg temankn dia. Aku tk pasal c0z aku syg dia tapi, mcm tk fair kan. Kalau aku blg d0c ape aku alami, cfm dia suruh pi h0spital n blah blah blah... Aku tknk d0k dlm h0spital. Takpe... Kalau dia btl2 tk caye, satu hari nnti kalau aku dh terlantar kat atas katil, baru dia phm agaknya...

After dat, th0ught nk pi gunting rambut. Dia nye pasal ah bagi atau tak. At last, aku tk pi c0z aku pi geylang. N i b0ught sumting very nice... It c0st 18 bucks or 25 bucks. Daddy yg belikan. Haha. Datz e pic UPSTAIRS... Nice right...

Th0ught nk gak belikan si dia.
Sbgai tanda persahabatan. Susah ah dia nie. Aku nk jumpe sbgai kwn pun susah. I thnk, kalau aku maen b0la, kfm dia lepak dgn aku je.
Part dulu tyme masih c0uple2. Bola leh t0lak tepi tapi dok dia bagi c0ment aku tk bag dia maen b0la lak. Nie lah lelaki. Pantang nmpk pmpn baik skit. Salah aku gak sal dok kasi muka sgt kat dia.

Kita mmg kwn. Aku blh terima tu. Mmg dh terima pun. Aku ajak kua nari sal aku nk ajak dia kua jalan2 dgn aku. Kok dia pilih b0la lak.
Karang nga gadoh ah nie. Tgk ah. Dia taknk msg aku pun. Dh biasak pun mcm nie.

Aku nak keja lahk. Mungkin ph agi k0t... Yalah. Nk jadi mcm dulu. Tknk pkr2 sal cowok2. Buat pening sajo ah.

Now, hari makin cpt. Dia pun, dh ku lupakan. Cinta mmg ada tuk setiap kawn2 ku tapi bukn yaya. Haha! Tu pun plastic. Menyampah. Hutang pun tknk byr. Menyesal dok kwn ngn dia. Mak aku pun bising.

Sentence 4 e dae:
Kok kalau ingn carik j0d0h, truz mencari... Jgn putus asa.
Dari wak kelantan!!

heya...!!
Its been a great week. At bazaar all e wae. Free f0od, drinks... Haha!! =)
Its like evrydae i reach h0me at 1am. Late right...?
Tired2. Now, im sick. Argh! My temp is 38.2. Quite high...
My throat pain n my b0dy weak... =(

Aniwae, its been a week i neva quarell with hym at all. Mayb, i alreadie cn xcpt it or myb, im jus d0in diz 4 hym... Hm...
I oso dnt n0e larh but i only knw dat i miss hym alot...
If we r stil 2gthr, 2mrw goin 2 b our anni. 1yr 1 m0nth... I du ask hym out but dnt n0e yet e answ.
Niwae, later going geylang again. Myb, im cutting ma hair later. Den, buy stuff. Myb, buker with farhan n sis at c0mpass. Hm. B0RING...! How i wish he's mine.

Todae neva go out... All e way jus stay at home n play psp games. Getting b0red with it actualie but ape nk buat kan. Past 3 days, im all e wae at geylang. Help out at uncle sh0p.hm... 2mrw im going there help out oso. Dgr2 with e 3 a's... My dad 'ahmad said' uncle 'mr ahmad' n me 'aishah'... Cfm dpt bnyk untungkan. Haha!
Nw, aku rindu sgt dgn si dia. Tapi, kita kwn kn. So, sabar je rindu nie. Hahaha!!
Ystrdae kwn aku paitow sehk. Dia janji nk kua ngn aku smlm tapi tak msg2 atau kol p0n. Irritating kan. Aku sabar bnyk2 dok.
Bukan tknk berkwn atau aku tknk org rapat dgn aku... Tapi, aku tk suka org amek kesempatan terhadap kebaikan aku...

Niwae, tadi my wh0le family at h0me but daddy go bank awhile. I b0ught baju kurung black c0l0r at miss saigon. Btl tk speling? Hm. Harga berpatutan. Haha!

Diz yr i h0pe 2 celebrate raya with my switheart fren... Hehe! Datz all 4 nw. Bye2..!

hey...! I jus reach h0me. Nw ab0ut 2+... Frm geylang jus nw wit family. 2dae buker with hym n den walk2 with hys frênz... Oklah. But actuali3 i got s0me otha plan which i th0ught dat he neva mit hys frens. But nvm, sumtymes n0t evrythng dat we've plan realie we get 2 du it. I neva t0ld hym dat c0z evry0ne wil b sorie. Yeah..!! I du stil lurv hym but i jus dnt get any signal frm hym yet. Hm... I feel dat he d0nt lurve me. Coz its lyke im alwaes lyke b e last prsn 2 n0e... Haix. Nvm, i understand it n0w.