Everything ends and start soo fast. Am i changing in my behavior..??

Mayb YES... If im n0t, he wont sae dat i changed. n he wont end everything.

Whateva happen rite now, is called "Datz lyfe"...

Not everything we want, we get it. Sumtymes we just put it to fate.

I hate myself ryte now. Mayb yeah its wrong for m3 to keep things from hyM but

I HAVE TOO...!!!

Datz not wat i want but its wat have to happen...

Im leaving moi fri3nds * Palat & yaya *

Wanna n0e why..??

THEY NOT HELPING IN ANYTHING BUT THEY'RE JUST GIVING PROBLEMS...

Wad dat i remember is dat Palat said 2 m3 dat

"Kalao Lan tanye aku ape2. Aku akan cakap dat aku tak tao ape2.."

Wads lan told m3 b4 is dat THEY ARE NOT A GOOD FRIEND..

A GOOD FRIEND WONT BREAK SUMONE ELSE RELATIONSHIP...

Maybe coz of dat, lan dont trust m3 in anything...

Wad 2 du.. I cant du anything but just let it b3..

Haslan du forgiv3 me but he wont take me back 4 sur3...

Its very2 sad for m3..

Mummie keep shouting n telling m3 to forget bout hym n stOp CRYING...

But how shuld i du dat when he's e one i realiie2 lurve..

Dis past 3 days are the m0st sad2 m0ment for m3.

I cried, i cut myself n even hit myyself on the wall.

I cant st0p blaming myself n its realiie2 hurts alot.

But..

I noe dat he's much more hurt then m3.

But..

Im now still angry with myself n keep asking myself..

"Where's the old Aishah..???"

Everyone said i change.

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Actuallie..

I never change at all. Im still the same aishah. But there's sumthing change..

Im not the aishah who ppl use to sae a playgirl..

Im not the aishah who plays with ppl heart...

Im not the aishah who change partner every now n den...

Im not aishah who alwaes dont care bout others..

NOW...

Im aishah who only lurve one person in her life.

Im aishah who willing to change for others.

Im aishah who thinks bout other feelings.

Im aishah who alwaes pity about others.

*Thats wads the different btwn aishah b4 knowing haslan n after knowing haslan*

Yesh!! Alot of things different...

If i can du dis thing, i will reallie2 du it.

Just be with hym n alwaes be wit hym till the rest of my life...

For now, im still waiting for him coz my last promise to hym is dat..

"I will wait for u till the rest of my life n no one can replace eu... You will b the last n alwaes b the one i in lurve with. Even u gone n left m3, my h3art still with u n nuthing can change my feelings..."

Right n0w, My Heart Isz Definitely Cloze To Everyone

Now, I left with jus faMilie n i d0nt nid aniOne elSe in ma life...

HasLan..

How far eu go.. I will alwaes loving eu...

N i will find n look for a prove to prove it to eu dat everythng is tru3..

For now, Can w3 still b3 friends..??

Please, jus a fri3nd by nam3..

Not a friend who haf to mit up....